One of the saddest...

It's the wee small hours of the morning and I am sitting here waiting for the laundry to be done so I thought I might share one of the saddest things that happened today. An hour ago I had a feeling to go check on Addy. I walked into her room and immediately smelled throw-up. I turned on the light to see her, sound asleep and covered in it. I felt so bad. Not only had she experienced that horrible experience of throwing up, but she was alone and had comforted herself back to sleep. I was so sad that I wasn't there for her. It's got to be one of the worst things just to see your children go through pain, let alone to not be there for them during it. After covering her new bed in it (which ironically is one of the cutest beds and brand new) we cleaned her off and Spence took her into our bedroom where she didn't make it before getting more out on our bed as well. Poor thing. It's amazing how nothing else seems to matter but getting them better. I don't care if I have to ruin a million comforter and bed sets if my children can always feel that they matter more and that we are there for them. I still feel so bad just thinking of her there, in the dark of her room, feeling so sick...It makes me want to cuddle up next to them every night and not leave. I love my children more than myself. This is surely some of what Father in Heaven feels. His only pain in seeing His children's pain. I am so grateful that He is there for us so together we can be the perfect parents for our children. Some nights I have to give them over to Him, place them in His care so that I can actually sleep. I know they are close to Him and I can feel how much He loves them. And in all my imperfections as a Mother, I feel honored just to be a part of it, with them, my heavenly friends.

She got showered and chattered the entire time, obviously feeling better and is now asleep with her Dad in the guest room. We will see how she is in the morning. Meanwhile I'm in between loads of towels, and bedding, still a little worried for her, counting my blessings and feeling closer to heaven, so I thought I would share.

Random Thoughts

I just love change. I love having big and small changes regularly in my life. Today: the furniture arrangement. Yes, I have only been here barely 2 months- so furniture is still in it's transitional phase, but we re-arranged the family room. Props to my Sweets (Spencer) for being willing to change our controversial television to (what seems to me) a less conspicuous and consuming location. I am thrilled with the change!

Yesterday was our neighbors birthday and so we threw a surprise party for him. We sat in the dark room for several minutes, with babies and young kids being shushed to not spoil the surprise. It was exciting and relieving when he finally came in. When we had him over for dinner he raved about my Parmesan chicken, so I had to make him some especially for his big day.

I can't wait to paint my house. I'm planning to tackle that a room and long weekend at a time. I love my home. Have I said that before? It is so perfect for us and I feel so blessed to be living here.

There are a few things I wish everyone in the world could have #1 The Gospel of Jesus Christ with all it's sanctifying, saving and sealing powers- #2 A loving, supportive, and trustworthy friend of a spouse, #3 Precious Children with all the joys they bring, #4 A Place of their own that they can love, learn and feel the spirit in.While I am so grateful that I have such a life, I honor those of you who can live so faithfully without.

My gals:

Mora smiles all the time. She tilts her head to the side like she is embarrassed and kicks/jumps. She moved into the crib in another room and of course it was hard for me the first few nights because I not only miss her right beside me in her bassinet, but I worry a bit. She sleeps great though and we are both happy. Addy has been sick but still so pleasant. We set up her new bed and she is so excited to have her books by her. She has let me round brush her hair- so cute



She makes requests for me to call specific people on the phone. Tonight Addy didn't want to have dad watch football so she asked me "momma tewn of da Td" to which I replied that she should ask her Dad (since he was the one actually watching it) and she said, just like the commercial, "Dad, have mom tewn off da td". So cute, Dad had to take a time out to read with her.

Speaking of Football...ten thoughts #1 My favorite play of the day was Colorado Quarterback's fake fumble. #2 Best game of the Day LSU vs. Auburn-I don't know why but I am liking LSU. And that final play- loved the gutsy/cray call. That's good football. Yet I am so sad for Auburn. #3 Oregon in their all white uniforms looked like the bad guys on Star Wars. #4 I wish we could've seen the BYU game. #5 Last week, Cal and Oregon State- I still can't get over the last second bad timing calculations of the QB- that's up there with the worst ways of losing.#6 I don't care if it's "plus 1" I really do not like the BCS- if it were significant I might pray for a play off- but since it's just football, I'll wait and see if the big wigs get with it.#7 If you're wondering how I can be a good mother and still know/watch these games, DVR baby! #8 I love seeing the reaction of the fans because, even if it's not a team I like, I can just feel it with them. I can't stand however seeing the zooming in on the losing players. It makes me feel so bad. #9 High Definition does make a difference (unfortunately) #10 I was really hoping USF would stay undefeated, I love under dogs, cinderella stories.

You would've laughed

Picture this:I have a strange ear ache/pain that I have been trying to figure out. Spencer chooses to remind me of the Oregon boy who had a spider that lived in his ear and had to be removed by the doc...So instantly the pain I am feeling begins to seem like a bug...could it be? There I was, over the kitchen sink, intently flushing the ear out with a blue suctioner, water spilling all over me,...Unfortunately no spider jumped out and the ear still hurts, but it was hilarious to me. Please don't worry, I'm sure it's fine but I'll let you know if we find something interesting.

Because I learn so much through them

Just looking at these pictures is good for my heart. They remind me how much I have learned and how much I have yet to learn from my little Adelaide who is fast approaching 2 years of age. I am so grateful for her optimistic, clever, believing, forgiving, cheerful way of living. She is truly one of my greatest examples.



And Precious Little Mora Ann. How blessed we are to live with an angel.

A True Saturday!

So, I believe that Saturdays were meant for morning projects around the house and then...afternoon family fun time! Boy did we have a blast! We spent it in our very own San Antonio! We finally took the time to go together to the Riverwalk, Alamo, and other down town attractions/sites. There is such a vacation feeling here with all the visitors, friendliness and even humidity.

Here's how Addy Started the trip



First stop, the Alamo.








There is something very special about visiting a battle ground and reflecting on all that has been given for our freedom. How little I have been asked to do to enjoy the blessing of this country. How I am using this freedom? How am I honoring those who have given all they have for it?

After a few hours at the Alamo we went to the River City mall where we gave in to sitting in on a time share presentation for a free 2 night vacation and $50. If there is one thing that disturbs me it's people acting personal and interested in your life simply for the sake of making money off you (but that's for a different blog). I know I know, of course if we spend this $20,000 now we will end up saving money this year in vacationing. While I wish I could afford something like that, our Priceline and cheaptickets vacations have blessed us to be able to travel with much smaller expenses than the average. So, we were up front at the beginning, respectful and patient and they gave us what they promised.

Here's Spence and Addy at the wax museum


Next we spent some time walking along the river.




Such a beautiful place with a unique atmosphere. Not only is the vegetation so plush but it seems to put people in a different world. Lazily walking up and down, enjoying the feeling and casualness. I never felt like someone was behind us trying impatiently to rush by. We saw at least 5 wedding parties and loads of tourists. The little shops and restaurants are all contracted to have a sort of "blending" into the environment so as to not take away from it's nature. It's just a fun place to be! Oh' and I can't believe the reponse people have to our children. We were continuously being stopped with people wanting to interact with them.

Our next stop was the Old Original Cathedral where Davey Crockett's remains (and others of the Alamo hero's) are.




It was simply captivating. Although I can't say that I necessarily felt the spirit there, I was filled with a sense of wonder at the majesty of the building and reverence for the faith of the people who built it and those who now preserve it. I found it intriguing, amazing and yet something so apparently missing in it's beauty... Yet still sacred ground because it is a resting place for the bodies of valiant men.

This was as far as Addy made it


Our last stop was to Market Street (not only did we get a lot of walking in, but we sure got our- $3 in quarters plus free after 6:00pm -parkings worth)


It was all together a delightfully adventurous, informative,reflective and fun filled day out on the town with my funnest pals!

What it can mean...

It's amazing how much a compliment from your husband can mean. While I must admit that I actually do care more about what people think of me than I wished, no one compares to what he thinks. Today in the middle of me talking to him he interrupted to say "you are really pretty". Now I was not looking so great- in scrubs with my hair pulled back into some concoction and spit up all over me- not really front of the magazine cover material, but those words just made me feel like I was it. It's not the compliment I am particularly seeking, yet it means so much to know he thinks that. So there, you size two run way babes, He thinks I'm pretty! 2 babies and some blue bell icecream can do it for ya! Thanks Babe! I hope you always think I am pretty. Your opinion and words mean everything. Everyone deserves a husband...and a good one too.

Such A Cutie!

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