Thursday, January 17, 2008

Amazing Memories, Regardless of the Photos




Who doesn't love to look at their wedding pictures? Anyone? While the day was absolutely perfect and nothing could ever compare to the feelings and sacred covenants, I'll be honest, I actually sometimes look back on the pics and wish that maybe someone who wasn't floating on the adrenaline of starting a new forever, could've given me some advice,like...: "maybe you should try wearing some makeup besides mascara and sweat" or..."you don't have to wear the tiara if you don't want to, just because it was included" or..."why don't you just wear your hair down like normal, instead of trying to do some crazy updo at the last minute" etc...
Okay, those thoughts have come occasionally but flee quickly. All I do is think about the day and a memory will come to mind. Then the picture completely changes to me. Like when I think of sitting on the floor of the hotel room only minutes before I had to leave for the temple...my Mom and Sister pretending to know what I was requesting for my hair (I didn't even know what I wanted) twisting, flipping, bobby pinning here and there as I looked in the mirror, thinking of what I was about to do, wondering,anxious to see him, dreaming, loving...I can see my sister's face wanting so desperately for me to be pleased with my hair, wanting me to feel wonderful, so unselfish, serving...and my mom, walking on sunshine herself (I think she was the first one to fall in love with my husband) looking so proudly at me, and by her look, making me feel stunningly beautiful...

I realized my hair couldn't have been prettier.

Not even having the best celebrity stylist could've made me feel any prettier.

As I got to finally scan in some pictures of our wedding the other day, I was reliving it all. The anticipation, tender feelings, the excitement, spirit, intense joy, Wow. I was amazed that by looking at pictures and closing my eyes, I could visit that sweet day for a few moments. I am so grateful for memories. That the spirit can "bring all things to [our] rememberance". That we can live, remembering the past and looking forward to the future.

What a Miracle, our MEMORY

I don't want my life to be a collage of good pictures anyway. I think sometimes we interrupt or alter our living by trying so hard to get the "best shot".
And to those of you who look at your wedding pictures and actually feel like you looked your absolute best, well...
you did!
Next time let me know if you want to borrow a tiara though. :)

PS- I am not looking for compliments on these photos. Just wanting to share a visual so you can feel included in the memory.

8 comments:

Lakes are Great said...

you guys look so tan! miss you.

JAMIE COOK~ said...

Beofre the compliments, I will say that I wanted and suggested OVER NAD OVER to put your hair down...That is what spencer likes, you were lucky you had a chance to learn that from the reception. I tried makeup too--but it doesnt matter, you don't like it, so you would have ahted it more if you had it on.
YOu know you are beautiful no matter what. who did your hair anyway? I wish i could post my pics on ours...to no avail

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Kelly N. said...

I think you looked great! Who cares anyway? I think everyone has at least three or four things they would change. Don't get me started.. ;)

I know I have said this before, but I am so sad we didn't do more when we lived 8 miles from each other. Now we are both in different, hot states.
Maybe at the 10 year WJ reunion? See you there!!

Paula said...

You guys look great!! I only WISH I could look that good in mascara and sweat!

H-less E-less said...

I know Kelly, we (or maybe I) was crazy to not have gotten together when we were nearly neighbors. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. :)
and don't even tell me you had issues with you on your wedding day because I saw you looking like your normal gorgeous knock out self.

Brianne and Jarod Stewart said...

I loved being with Jarod on our wedding day...but there are a TON of things that I would change if I could plan my wedding over...maybe for an anniversary sometime right??? You looked beautiful, and there was nothing better than seeing how happy your radiant face was the night of your wedding. I was so envious of you (I know...I know...I have repented of that since..) You two are so great together, and you were super cute dancing around ;)

RaeLynn said...

I know you aren't looking for compliments, or fishing for feedback--but I don't care. You're getting some anyway :) You are such a beautiful person. I wonder sometimes if you realize it. I really don't think you know just how gorgeous you really are...and I think it's because you glow :)